Do you ever get one of those days where you are just completely depressed and you cant do anything about it, well I have had that day all day today and it just keeps getting worse by the second and I feel like depression is going to over my head for awhile now. And I know people say that you need to find a way to get out of a slump, but that is not the case I have tried everything that I could think of from listening to my favorite bands, to watching my favorite shows and movies and to just trying to think of positive things and talking to friends but nothing is helping , and I hate it, but I think its because the thing that is making me so depressed is in the back of my mind just slipping into every activity and everything I do. And I just cant seem to stop thinking about it, it is fricken terrible, I fricken hate it.

DAMN DEPRESSION GO AWAY ALREADY I DONT WANT YOU AND I DONT LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  :P     

So I'm at school and its going pretty well, but I still cant wait for school to be over, the upside is that I'm at the computers in my school and there is this really amazingly hot guy sitting next me hahaha I'm such a creep lol :D

So not going into my first class today, because I so tired and I dont feel like staying from 8 am till 10 pm this way Im only staying from 12:30 till 10 pm it will be great staying from those times. Well going to go back to bed till probably 10:30 or 11, I guess this is a night night :)

In school bored out of my fricken staying all day because I have to not because I want to I have to, it sucks but at least I get to do what I love and that is Photography <3 that is one plus, anymore I don't think so
:(      Well I'm off bye bye

Bored out of my fricken mind waiting for my next class, I just want to go home and sleep, waiting for tomorrow going to my old high schools football game cant wait it is going to be so much fun :D <3 well bye bye for meow.

Wow I have not been on this in such a long time I cant believe I even remembered all of my information for this lol. well for me everything has been good, I started college and it is boring besides one class and that is my photography class it is so much fricken fun I Love it :D well that is really all I wanted to say :D have a great night. Night night :D

So this summer has been so much fun, and I have been hanging out with such amazing people :D

So tomorrow is going to be so much fun hanging out with my friends Allyson her little brother Dan, my little sister Bri and my friend Justin, we are having a little picnic, and it is going to be so much fun :D

I love how bill collectors call and the answering machine is talking to them and it says Answering machine-"This person is not home right please leave a message after the beep"     beep.......Bill Collector-"Hello this is "Mike" how are you today? hello this is Mike, hello? Hello are you there?" Its like hello duh it says the person is not home leave a message, it doesn't say hi I'm pretending to be an answering machine please talk to me while I'm pretending, and its a live person as the bill collector so I know that they are real, so I don't know how they are not getting it, it just makes me laugh, its just so funny how they do not get it huhhh people  :)

I'm sick of people thinking that just because you are engaged you think that you can have sex, but it doesn't matter if you are engaged or not, you still are not married, and I don't like it, and it is not right in God's eyes, God meant for you to have that special person because you will be with that person forever, and if you are engaged and you are having sex something could go wrong and you wont be with that person anymore and you will look back and think to yourself why did you do this. So I don't think that it is right and God sure doesn't.

I cant wait for tomorrow, because my brother and sissy-in-law and their kids are coming up and spending the fourth of July here in New York, YAY!!!!! I cant wait, I cant wait :D <3

Bored but this has been a good week so far, I got all my classes for college set up, I got the days and times, only going to school two day out of the week, tuesdays and thursdays, but tuesday I have classes from 8 am to 10 pm, so that will be fun lol :) but yeah this weekend as in saturday is my first grad party for family to go to than my other one is Aug. 11th for friends and some family :D YAY!!! cant wait :D

So I can not believe that I graduated today, it feels weird to not to the same school that I have gone to all my life. I was so nervous today but I am glad that it is all done with. I am going to miss all the people that I have become friends with and the people that I have become to known and all the wonderful teacher's that I have had throughout the years :D

Sooooo nervous, Graduating tomorrow EEEEEEEEK!!!!! :D

Making homemade Molasses Cookies mhmm :D

Oh yeah graduation this Saturday, it's going to be epic lol :)

Well today is the last day of school pretty sad, I'm going to miss it, all of my friends I'm going to miss and some of the teachers I'll miss, but the thing I will NOT miss is the smell of Cow Shit, that is one thing that I will NEVER miss for as long as I live. But yeah I'll will miss all the great times that I have had in the Homer Schools, this is where I have met my very best friends. Especially Allyson Strauf I will the most her the most because Allyson and I have know each other since kindergarten, we have been best friends ever since, we kind of lost touch in middle school but always seemed to find a way to talk to each other to keep up in our lives then in 11th grade in lunch is where we talked all the time like we used to, we caught up on old things talked about new things I love that we are friends because we always have each others backs in everything, and I'm happy that we are still friends today. I Love her because I consider her as one of my sister's. Ally I love you :D <3

Dane Cook's Dad- "you don't know your ass from your elbow" lol I love that saying it is so fricken funny :D

So I'm Happy for today because it is the last day that I have to go to Boces because I am graduating tonight and I won't have to deal with annoying people anymore and then June 23rd I'm graduating from Homer High School and I won't have to deal with more annoying people anymore. Then June 30th is my first grad party that is just for family, then August 11th is my second grad party just for friends. It is going to be so much fun :D

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED I CAN'T HANDLE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :Z

In Boces bored out of my mind and I wish I could go home and sleep I am very cold and tired. :'(

So I'm sick with an allergy virus. Been sick with it since Monday morning when I woke up. Monday night I didn't go to sleep until 4 am because I had a sore throat and a major headache, then had to wake up around 5:40 to get ready for school. Than Tuesday night I didn't go to sleep until 3 am because my neck was hurting, had a headache, sore throat and stuffy nose. Wednesday night I didn't go to sleep until 12 am, because of sore throat, coughing because I had a tickle in my throat every time I started to doze off, plus I had a headache and runny nose while being stuffy. Now the whole week I have not gotten any sleep but I am still able to go to school and function normally. Now I say that is pretty impressive if I do say so myself. But I have to get some sleep tonight because tomorrow is the senior trip and I am not missing that and wasting the money that I paid for it.

Just got done working on my Cover page for my English Portfolio and it is amazing if I do say myself, ha I love. Still in a bad mood, still having a hard time talking and I still have a sore throat, tired as anything, just want to go home and sleep. :'( I am surprised that I can function knowing that I didn't go to sleep till 4 in morning, but at least I am getting work done :D

Today sucks so bad I lost my fricken voice yesterday :'( and my throat is in so much pain I want to cry. Could not fall asleep until 4 a.m. so tired, I'm in pain and pissed off. I cant wait till Friday going to P.A to Hershey Park for our senior trip. WOOP WOOP!!!! :D

So I have just got done reading this random blog called rashadiscrazy.blogspot.com  and it was so funny the first thing I had read was about him in Starbucks, that was the funniest thing I have read lol :D

In Boces in my Graphics Class right now, working on a skull and crossbones project, it's really going well and I am hoping that it will be done by time today is over, so I can print it out and have it in my portfolio for the future to come. Than staying at Boces to watch my niece's while their mom and dad are doing a test/class probably going to take them for a walk so it will be good. 

There are some sick weird people out there that have blogs that shouldn't have blogs. I'm scared of what I might see next. YIKES!!!!!!! :'(

I have just finished my 1st prose for English, yeah I know it should have been done awhile ago but it has been hard to find a good article that would relate to what I am writing about, and now I have to find another one for the 2nd prose. Yay!! (Not)

Bored working on my prose for English cant think of anything to put in it very disappoint. And very disappoint in the way my life and family is turning out these days. Just wish everything could go back to the way it was before he came and before everything changed because of him :Z I'm not happy at all!!!!!! :'(

Baby in a Flower



Anne Geddes





My favorite Photographer is Anne Geddes, she is my Favorite because she

always comes up with different ideas for pictures with babies. I think that it is amazing how she does that and how her pictures are amazing.

A Poem By Robert Frost-

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. The reason why I love this poem and why it is my favorite, is because it reminds me of my life and how "I have taken the road less traveled by". The reason why I find myself "taking the road less traveled by" is because I have not done the same things that my family has done and not what my friends have done. I do things on my own, even if people think I shouldn't I do anyway. People think that I should not do photography because I would not go far in life, well guess what I'm doing pretty damn good so far. People say I shouldn't speak my mind or it would get me in trouble, I don't care this is my life I'm going to speak my mind and if you don't like it then don't listen. People may not like me because of the decisions that I have chosen in my life, but guess what its my life not yours and I know that some of you have my best interest in mind but this is how I am. And the reason why is because I have taken the road less traveled by.

So mad at myself, because last night, Monday Night Raw was on and I always watch it, I have not missed a night of it in two years. So last night I was pissed because I had fallen asleep during it. And so I have no idea what happened on it, who was fighting and what drama was happening. Then I woke up on my couch at 11:44, got food for my rabbits, went to go feed them then, I went to go feed my hamster Ronnie and found out that he was dead. I knew that this day would come because he was three and teddy bear hamsters only live for three years and yeah so I knew that this was coming but I didn't think it would be so soon. So last night was horrible for me. So now I am in a crappy mood, tired and pissed off. My throat hurts and my voice sounds like crap too. So yay what a wonderful two days it has been for me so far (NOT!)

So I guess that I'm going to prom. I had it planned that I wasn't going because of the money issues, but I am going to get a free prom dress hopefully it will fit me, then the ticket is all ready payed for by Mrs. Cleland, going with Carleen and Kayli, and Kala and her boyfriend Austin. WOW what a change can not believe it saturday is going to be a busy day for me. The only thing that is a problem is that I have no idea how I am going to pay Mrs. Cleland back. So still have to worry about things.

Adventure Time
Finn sings a song

This song is always stuck in my head this is the only thing I like from adventure time.

"I'm a buff baby that can dance like a man,

I can shake a my fanny, I can shake a my can,

I'm a tough-tooten baby that can punch in your buns,

I can punch in your buns, I will punch in your buns,
If your an evil witch I will punch you for fun"

So I remember this movie I saw of Johnny Depp's like maybe a year ago and it is a 2004 movie called Secret Window. It was written and directed by David Koepp, and based on the novella Secret Window, Secret Garden by Stephan King. Stephan King is one of my favorite author's because his books are stupid but yet weird, and I find them really funny. The movie is so good and so mysterious yet confusing at the same time but as it keeps going it starts making since. It starts with a successful author Mort Rainey (Depp) who has suffered a psychotic break when he catches his wife, Amy (Maria Bello) having an affair. He stays in his cabin with his dog and he is trying to write a book but he has writers block. And one day he gets a knock at his door and he goes to see who it is and it is this hick and he says that Mort (Depp) has stolen his work (story) and had made it into his own. And the guy is threatening Mort and he is just weird. So Mort has been paranoid about the whole thing and he feels like the guy is watching him, and through this he is still dealing with a divorce. So it makes everything harder on him. And when the hick came to talk to him he left a copy of the book. And Mort threw it away and then it kept tauting him and he finally reads it and realizes that every word in there was the same as his book. So the he tries to prove that the book is his. But at the end of it he realizes something it than it makes so much more since. There's a lot more than what I put but I don't want to spoil it. So whoever is reading this, if you have not seen this movie you really need to it's so good.
<~ Great fricken movie :D

So I want to see Johnny Depp's new movie Dark Shadows. It looks like a really good movie and any movie with Depp in it is really good and worth seeing, and any movie of Tim Burton is worth seeing. I love Tim Burton because he has such an imagination and I love that, plus his stuff is like super dark but yet really funny and I like dark things like that, plus I love comedy. So yeah hopefully May 11th I'll be able to go see it, it will be awesome. :D

So I got the audio tapes of the book Ordinary People from Mrs. Carboine. I like audio to books because I can see what is happening in the book while the person is reading it and I understand more when I can picture what is happening. And the way the that person is reading it, they put it in a way that they change their voice to go with the character and that makes it better for me to picture. So Mrs. Carboine is letting me take the tapes home with me so I can use them at home, so I would like to say thank you Mrs. Carboine, thank you very much. We were on 4th period when she had told me that she had the audio I was so happy, I was so happy because 3rd period I was in her room also and I was thinking to myself, "man I wish I had the audio to this it would be so much better and I would not get distracted and I would be able to pay attention and I would not want to fall asleep because when you hear me read I read it so boring and I would make you want to fall asleep it is that bad. But it's weird because when I was younger when I read I would put character into it and I would be so good at reading but anyway I was happy about it because I like audio so yeah :D <3

In 9th period with Carleen, board out of my fricken mind listening to old music (Temptations, Gary Lewis and The Playboys, and The Proclaimers) good music, it is the only thing that is keeping me from going crazy, because of how bored I am.

In English wondering why the stupid Haitians thought of Zombies, because it is so stupid. I don't like the whole thing of Zombies it just doesn't make any sense to me. How do you get the person that has become a zombie to be one, what make's them crave human flesh? I don't get the whole "arg I'm gonna eat your brain!", umm no clearly you are not because I have a skull protecting my brain and I know you won't be able to eat through my skull because you are not strong if you were, you would be able to use both of your legs and not one of them and drag the other. How do you become the "living dead" and how do you magically have one working leg but then you are faster than an actual living person, who are you Sonic the Hedgehog, I mean come on, really, really When we are little we learn that zombies want to eat our brains, but then when we get older they want to eat our flesh as well and now they even have it where they are eating our inners. Just stick to something and leave it as that. This is why I do not agree with the whole zombie thing. People just can't stick to one thing they have to change everything and make everyone confused. (I Hate it!)

Dear Person who is trying to run away from me,

Hi I'm a zombie I'll have a leg that looks broken but it doesn't hurt and also I may be slow in walking but if I see you run I'll be like Sonic the Hedgehog and get right in front of you so you can't run away anymore. Also I'll say brains all the time telling you that I want to eat your brains but really I'm just gonna eat your brains and your flesh. P.S also your inners so WATCH OUT! ha ha P.S.S maybe next I'll crave your bones and eat those too (try anyway).

Sincerely, The Friendly Zombie

P.S.S.S (talking in a whisper) I'm right behind you  :)

The worst taste EVER is METAL. I have had the taste of metal in my mouth for the past two days and I do not know why. I looked it up on the computer and it says that it could be caused by Calcium tablets and I take two Calcium tablets every day because I am low on Vitamine D and Vitamine D is in the Calcium tablets that I have so I am not going to be taking those for awhile to see if that is why I have the metal taste in my mouth. I also saw that it could be from too much dairy, I eat/drink dairy like it was candy. I am a diaryaholic, I absolutly Love dairy I can not live without it, but Im going to have to because that could be causing the metal taste in my mouth. So I have to give up something that I have to take for my body and give up something that I Love. Such a sad time when you have to give up one of your favorite things in the world like DAIRY!!!! :'(        DAA (Dairy Aholics Annoymous)  Hi my name is Bethany and I am a Dairyaholic :'(

So the Spring Break was so FRICKEN boring, the only thing that I liked was baking, (chocolate cookies, Paula Dean Cup Cakes, and Paula Dean Sugar Cookies, P.S. they were so good beside the sugar cookies) Love Paula Dean lol :)

And that I was hanging out with Dewey again and that we caught up on a lot of things, we talked about a lot of things also but it was fun :)

This is the worst Spring Break of my life, nowhere to go, no one to hang out with, this really sucks, I hate it grrrrrrrr............

So today I had found out by one of my friends, I will not say their name bcuz they dont want the person who said Shit about me to know it was them who told me. So I will just call my firend E. Now E overheard a conversation that was going on in one of their classes yesterday and apparently it was about ME! it was about the way I was eating cheese with a spoon in lunch. (the cheese you get with the soft pretzels) well Im sorry that I dont waste cheese people who waste cheese are fricken crazy. So I was eating the rest of the cheese with a spoon and apparently it was too disgusting for them to handle. Well Im sorry that you were looking at me and I'm sorry that Im not lady-like and eat with my fingers. Im not gonna scoop the cheese up with my fingers, I'm gonna eat it with a spoon. I'm sorry that Im such a PIG because I eat with a spoon, (I am such a cavewoman and I dont know my manners...... oooooops oh well whata gonna do) So when E told me about it, I was listening to them telling me and E was actually being a good friend unlike they usaully are, but I was so pissed, because that person who was talking shit about me, they are so fricken stupid. Im sorry that Im so repulsive because I eat with a spoon. So I was so pissed that I didnt go to the person and asked them what their beef was with me, no instead I was going to be an ass and E didnt want me to say anything so I didnt. So being the digusting person that I am I purposely sat there in lunch eating with my mouth open hopeing that the person would see me doing it, I did everything that I could think of that was gross to gross this guy out, I thought it was funny and my friends thought it was funny also. So hey at least I got a laugh out of it. This is one reason why I can not wait to graduate and another reason why I hate people. :) So yeah that was what was on mind mostly the rest of the day how much of an asshole that guy is. hmmm they will never learn. So thank you E for the information :D

In English working on mine and carleens prezi and I thought it would be a good idea to write on this because I bored and tired, carleen is looking things up for the project and I am putting them on the prezi, man I smell popcorn and it smells pretty good and now I want some popcorn, it smells like the movie theatre popcorn so now I want to go to the movies also, man I just want everything, this fricken SUCKS!!!!!!!

Book Report Part 1:



Stephen Kings, The Cell, is about this man named Clay; he is an artist and loves comic books, he has a son Johnny Gee and a wife Sharon but they are separated. He meets this guy named Tom, he is a Christian he loves his cat, tried to be sensitive but it doesn’t work out. Then they meet a little girl about 15 and her name is Alice, she puts all her strength in a baby shoe that she had found. Now something as happen to society and it has to do with the cell phones. They are turning people into these computerized people. They “flock” but day “charge” but night. Later on in the story they meet this boy and his name is Jordon, now Jordon is somewhat of “geek” he knows a lot about computers and how they work so it’s good that they had found him. Now when Clay and the guys sleep they get these, well there sort of like visions and it’s this man with a Harvard sweatshirt on and he has a torn lip and he looks like crap to be completely honest. He is telling other “normies” that they should not pay any attention to Clay and the guys that they are bad fishies. Now they go on to different places, they are trying to get to a place that is called Kashwak. Kashwak=NO-FO, the Harvard man told them to go there. The phoner, that’s what Clay likes to call them, they talk not in complete words but sounds that sound like the complete words and in Clays head he knows what they are saying. Later on, Alice gets hit in the head and…… Clay wants to go to his place and find Johnny if he hasn’t already turned into a phoner and to find his wife if she hasn’t turned. Johnny has left notes in different places to lead his dad to him. Later they meet a pregnant woman Denise, this guy named Ryan, and a guy named Dan. They realize that the Harvard guy told them that Kashwak=NO-FO that there was no phone service there at all well guess what he fricken lied cuz there was phone service. Ryan set a bomb and made it to go off in Kashwak when Clay had called the number. And from the bomb guess who died? Not telling ya you’ll just have to read it but it was good. So in the end Clay had left the group and went on his own and he had found Johnny Gee but… and he already found his wife and she was already a phoner it was sad but he just had to keep on going. And yeah that’s the book. There’s gore but I didn’t put the details in there you’ll just have to read that.







Book Report Part 2:



The Characters of this book are unique because ya got different personalities coming together trying to survive in what is like the end of the world. There is the first person the story has and that is Clayton Riddell or Clay. Now Clay is a good person he has a son named Johnny Gee and he loves him so much. He also has a wife her name is Sharon and he still loves her even though they are separated. Then there is Tom McCourt a man who is Christian and very proud of it. He is a man that tries to be nice but when it comes down to it if ya bother him, he will say something about it. Then there comes Alice Maxwell, she is 15 years old she is a sweet girl and she knows how to treat people with respect. Then there comes Jordon. Jordon is about 12 and he is a computer geek and he is well known for it. Now the theme of this story are CELL PHONES dun dun dun dun. Yup cell phones ya read me right. Cell Phones are the evil in the world. The cell phones have been a thing that people have become afraid of and the thing that will rule the world in the end.











Book Report Part 3:



This was a very good book and I would totally read it again, it’s just that good. At first reading it I thought it was a book about zombies. I think that zombies are the most stupid thing that I have ever heard of like come on are you serious, really…. really, stupid. But as I kept reading I had found out that it wasn’t. But it was about people at first who had turned into zombie like creatures because they were eating a p that is why I thought it was about zombies. I think that anybody from the age of 15 and up should read this. The reason why I think that those ages should read it and not ages younger because it has a lot of swear words in it, and it has gory stuff in it that kids should not be reading about. But yeah that it would be a book that I would read again. My mom read what it was about and she is going to read it next lol.



This Book Report was written by Beth L. Bushnoe she lives in New York and she does not own a cell phone.

YOUR WELCOME!!!!!!!!!!

So I'm reading Stephen King's book The Cell . It is a really good book I didn't think it was going to be but it actually is. I'm very impressed on how good it is. At first I thought it was going to be a book that has to do with zombies when you first start reading it. But its not, once you keep reading.

So I went into Tops today and my little sister Bri had to go to the bathroom so I went with her, and as I'm waiting for Bri to get out a woman came out of the stall and walked right out, she didnt even wash her hands, Like are you kidding me, you are in a store and you can't fricken wash your hands, even knowing that you are going to be touching food that you might not want and you would put it back for somebody to have, and lady it smelt really bad in that bathroom and you were the only one in there before we got in there so I know it was you, and so I know what you did and you still didnt wash your hands. Sick, sick, sick people we have in this world, cant even take a second to wash your hands in a store. This is why I worry about germs. People think Im crazy because Im sort of like a a germaphobe but this is why, sorry that I dont want to get sick or get a decease, I watch for these things and other people dont, makes me sick.
STUPID LADY!!!!!!!

Home visiting with my brother Don and his family, so fun, i love getting back in touch with them :D <3

"This is Life, Live it"  <~ My Motto :D  <3 

So today I was in the library for English class, I go to put in my username 12bbushnoe, I look at the key board and low and be hold I go for where the B is SUPPOSED to be but somehow there is an G in place of the B but it doesnt type a G when you push it, it types a B like it should, I was so confused. And I said to myself  "what? what is this? why is there an G where the B is supposed to be?" So Im looking around at the key board and I realize that mostly all the letters are not in their proper places, man I was so angry. And I look even closer and I realize that where the asdfg keys are, and it reads "bitch" and Im like "what how dare they, such losers!"   In Spaldings words, "scumbaggery". It goes perfect for those people who did that. But the question is, why, how, and are you stupid or something?
I think they have a mini crowbar that they carry around with them because that it is the only way they would be able to switch the keys like that. Then later today I was thinking about it and what if they knew I sat there at that computer and they were sending me a message saying that I am a bitch, but the thing is, is that Im not unless you make me mad then yes other than that Im not. I am just sick of people.

Hmmm...well Im glad I got that off my chest.

So I got this email from a cell phone asking about stokoes vocab list, if you emailed me with a cell phone, please tell me im so confused. Thank you.

Cant wait for this weekend my bother Don and his wife, my sissy-in-law Tianna are coming up from Virgina with the kids so excited havent seen them in a long time, their here for three days. WOO HOO!!!!! :D <3

Just finished my vocab words and story for English and emailed them to Spalding, so happy that I got done with that quick so I dont have to worry about it for the rest of the week. :D

Waiting for Carleen to be done with her English quiz, hopefully she passes it, unlike some people aka me, lol. bored so I thought I would update this. Cant wait to go home and check on the puppies, it will be Carls first time seeing them in person. They have gotton so big and cute and they are only a week in half old. Two girls and one boy they are soooo precious. :D <3

In class working on vocab for English, and trying to read The Cell for english such a good book, I actually like it.

Spring cleaning YAY! (NOT!!!!!) I hate spring cleaning, but I do love listening to music while cleaning so I guess its ight :) 

So I miss the old days when everything was good and we didnt have to worry about, whos dating who and graduating high school. I remember me worry about graduating the sixth grade. I truely do miss the old days. I wish we still that small and no worries. :D <3

So Im reading this book for English and I really do like it. Its Stephan Kings, The Cell, and it about these people who kind of turn it these "zombie-like" creators aka phone-crazies. They flock by day and "sleep"- "recharge" by night, its pretty weird but I like that kind of stuff, because ya know Im weird, lol. But yeah I do recommend it for people who are reading this.

New to this. and Im bored :)